How many times in your life have you not said what you had to say and not done what you had to, only because you were afraid?
And why were you afraid? Were you in a life-threatening risk? Would you have to make too much effort?
No. You were afraid because you didn't want to be ridiculous, you didn't want to show your weakness, you didn't want to face the truth and confess it to someone.
When you have a fear, it is because you know that there is some danger or many dangers threatening you. It's not a feeling that appears in your behaviour without any reason.
When you are afraid to say the truth, afraid that you might be considered an idiot or dependent on someone else, you are in fact afraid to destroy the image of your ego because it is an idol for you.
Therefore, you prepare a tremendous conspiracy only in order to hide how desperately you need the person you love, or only in order to appear a certain way in your social environment.
You let the person you love suffer very much by being away from you and you yourself suffer far more, only because your ego cannot accept the simplicity of sincerity. You cannot confess your weakness. Therefore, you prefer to lose and suffer without hope than be humble and accept that you need someone.
You prefer to be cold and cruel with the person you would like to hug, only because you think that this must be your attitude, according to your position.
You are afraid to be human, have needs, admit that when you are in love with someone you are weak too, like everybody else in this world, even though many people try to hide it like you.
You are afraid to be humble, simple, insignificant and especially afraid to be disliked. You have to always be on top! You cannot lower yourself. Your pride doesn't allow you to be simple and like the crowd.
Therefore, you prefer to be crazy and become crazier in the future due to your despair. You prefer to lose and to abandon, to humiliate and to condemn.
However, I feel I have the obligation to inform you that schizophrenia and psychosis are waiting for you, when you explode like a bomb because you didn't have the courage to be human, to ask for what you needed so much or even to beg.
Love, pride, fear and craziness are the component parts of a real tragedy.
译文:
爱情，骄傲和疯狂
在你的生活中，有多少次因为你的畏惧，想说的话开不了口，想做的事情没有去做？
为什么你会畏惧？是因为生活所迫？还是担心你会付出太多努力？
都不是！那是因为你怕成为大家的笑柄，你不想让别人看到你的缺点，你不想承认别人的观点是正确的。
你感到害怕，那是因为你知道这件事情有危险或会威胁到你。你的行为毫无预兆的让你感到畏惧，这不是单纯一种感觉。
你畏惧说实话，你是怕被人认为白痴，或者害怕被人牵着鼻子走，其实你是畏惧你的自尊心受到伤害，害怕你的形象受损。
因此，你谋划如何来掩饰这些，仅仅是为了你爱的人和你需要的人，或者仅仅是为了让你的仕途一路平坦。
让你的爱人感到离开你非常的痛苦，其实你自己更痛苦，只是因为你的自尊心无法承受真实的想法。你不愿意承认你的缺点。因此，你宁可失去爱人，绝望的忍受痛苦，也不愿意对别人低声下气。
仅仅因为根据你的立场，这就是你的态度，你宁愿亲近冷酷残忍的人。
当你爱上某人时，你畏惧心上人看到你的弱点，其实很多人都会这么做，试图把弱点掩盖起来。
你畏惧低声下气，愚昧无知，微不足道，特别畏惧别人厌恶自己。你要挺起胸膛，不要妄自菲薄。你有自己的自尊，有自己灿烂的人生。
于是，因为你丧失信心，你宁愿变得疯狂，变本加厉的疯狂。你宁可丧失信心，放弃自信，遭到别人的羞辱和谴责。
不过，我觉得我有必要告诉你，这样你会得精神分裂症和精神病的，你对生活充满了绝望，需要得不到满足，你就会像炸弹一样爆发。
爱情，骄傲，畏惧和疯狂可以酿成一场悲剧。