昨天,学校组织了“西塘一日游”,早晨八点半从杭州出发,十一点到达目的地,随同事一起走马观花一样的在古老的民居间兜了一圈,两点就开始往回返。
很不尽兴。
天气太冷,还是雨加雪。
早晨起得太匆忙,早餐没顾上吃,就饿着肚子出来观光了。逼人的寒气再加上饥肠漉漉,我在人群里心不在焉地看风景,风景也在冷眼看着我们。
从踏上西塘的那一刻起,心里就一直有个声音在说:如果子期也在,如果是和子期携手游西塘,并在这古老的小镇上执手偕老,今生,也算是无撼了。可子期,他是不能长翅膀的人。
在西塘看中了一种装在竹桶内的青梅酒,竹桶古朴而小巧,喝完后,用来放毛笔一定很不错。想买酒是因为想念子期,想起子期,心情总是黯然。子期不在,子期更不可能来,那也就没有买酒的必要了。
西塘黑瓦白墙的民居是我所喜欢的,看着水边古老陈旧的木格窗棂,我想,在西塘还没变成旅游胜地之前,那些年轻女子每天早晨临水梳妆时的景致,肯定比古画里的仕女梳妆图更有情致,如果再有知己为佳人倚窗画眉,那就真的只羡鸳鸯不羡仙了。
逛财神庙时,工作人员带我们抽签拜佛,我很幸运地抽了个上上签——“锦上添花”。
然后,一些似僧非僧、似俗非俗的“工作人员”,就很先知地给我们解说,解说完毕,又有下一个流程的人领我们去烧香。当我被告知自己要烧一个290元的“五福临门”香时,顿时就傻眼了。
在尴尬得不知进退时,一个同事过来拉我走才得以脱身。对菩萨,这样或许是有些大不敬的,但如果菩萨知道我钱包里的RMB还不够买一炷香的话,她也会像那些工作人员一样不高兴吗?
这一炷香,把我游玩的兴致给降得更低了。
今天一大早就去学校领红包,里面的四张老人头让我决定过一个简单的春节。
上午,我亲自去市场置办了年货:10斤米,10斤面。东西不多,可让我步行半小时提回家,我还是吃不消的。店老板很会做生意,他让儿子骑三轮车送我回来,并告诉我,以后需要什么,打个电话就给我送来。
坐在房间里,看着自己购来的米面,心里恍惚得很——其实,不管选择什么样的生活方式,我们食的还是凡间的烟火。食的是凡间烟火,生的是一身凡骨,恋的是凡间男子,究竟,有什么是我们可以摆脱的?又有什么是我们需要摆脱的呢?
江南的冬天是湿冷的,在远离故园的“人间天堂”里,我度着和寻常百姓一样的时日,为柴米忧,为生活苦,可总还有那么一点点不一样的地方,让未来在我的眼里,总是绚烂于身边人。当爱与信念,在一个人的心里蓬蓬勃勃地生长了几十年后,还有什么苦是不可以忍受的呢?
译文:
Live Day by Day
Yesterday a one-day tour of Xitang Town was organized in the school. We left from Hangzhou for Xitang at 8:00 a.m. and arrived at the destination at 11 o’clock in the morning. Along with my colleagues, I just scratched the surface of the ancient folk houses in the city and started returning at 2 p.m.
We failed enjoying ourselves since it was very cold and had a mixture of rain and snow. Besides, I got up in a hurry and started off without having breakfast in the morning. I looked at the landscape with absence of mind among the crowd because of cold air and hunger. The landscape also looked coldly upon us.
Since the moment the start of the tour, there was a voice in my heart: if Ziqi were with me and could make a tour in the ancient town, even we grow old together there, I would have no regret all my life. But, Ziqi doesn’t have wings and could not fly to me at that time.
I took a fancy to a kind of plum wine hold inbamboo sections during the tour. The bamboo section is small and exquisite, of primitive simplicity. It can be used as a good penholder after wine is drunk up. I wanted to buy wine because of missing Ziqi. When I miss him, I always feel so sad. Ziqi was not in Hangzhou and it’s impossible he could pay me a visit. So it’s unnecessary to buy the wine.
I like the folk houses with black tiles and white walls in Xitang. When seeing the obsolete wooden window pillar, I came up with a scene that the young women face the river,make up themselves, which has more temperament and interest than ladies in painting making up. Is there was a bosom friend leaning the window drawing eyebrow for a beautiful woman, it would be an enviable affectionate couple who are not willing to be celestial beings.
When visiting the god and mammontemple, their staff instructed us to cast lots and worship buddhas. I got a good lot that is I was blessed with a double portion of good fortune.
Then, some monks alike staff explained some prophecies. After finished the explanation, they led us to burn incense. We got a nasty shock when we ere told it a “five blessings have descended upon the house” and costed 290 RMB.
It was such an embarrassing situation and I carried it off well after a colleuge pulled me away.Maybe it’s a little disrespectful to the Buddha. Is he unhappy like the staff when he knows I don’t have enough money in my porket for burning incense?
The burning incense is also a wet blanket to me to continue touring.
I went to the school to get my bonus this early morning. It’s 400 RMB in a red packet. So I decide to have asimple Spring Festival.
In the morning I went to the market to do Spring Festival shopping. I bought 5 kg rice and 5 kg wheat flour. Though there were few things it would be hard for me to walk home with them. The shopkeeper is smart and he let his son take me and my goods home by a motor tricycle.Healso told me that if I need buy something in future I can call them and they will deliver to my flat.
Sitting in the room and watching the rice and flour I bought, I felt absentminded. In fact, no matter what life style you choose, what we eat is the ordinary food. Eatting ordinary rice on earth, growing ordinary body of human being and fallig in love with ordinary man, however, what are things we can get rid of and what are we need to get rid of?
It’s wet cold in south of the Yangtze River in the winter. In Hangzhou city, a paradise on earth, a place far away from the hometown, I live a simple life as ordinary people live, concerning the food and hardship of life. But there always are something different and special, which makes me long for future and looks better than people around me. Is there any hardship in the world for someone unable to suffer, since the love and belief have been growing in his heart for several decades?